{"id":44512,"date":"2024-05-08T00:03:37","date_gmt":"2024-05-08T04:03:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/?p=44512"},"modified":"2026-02-27T21:15:56","modified_gmt":"2026-02-28T02:15:56","slug":"the-soul-other-lives-and-inter-dimensionality-a-perspective","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/the-soul-other-lives-and-inter-dimensionality-a-perspective\/","title":{"rendered":"The Soul, Other Lives, and Interdimensionality: A Perspective"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"et_pb_section_0 et_pb_section et_section_regular et_block_section\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_0 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_0 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_3 et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_0 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>07<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_1 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>May 2024<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_2 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Spirituality<br \/>Dimensions<br \/>Other Lives<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_1 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_post_title_0 et_pb_post_title et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module\"><div class=\"et_pb_title_container\"><h1 class=\"entry-title\">The Soul, Other Lives, and Interdimensionality: A Perspective<\/h1><p class=\"et_pb_title_meta_container\">by <span class=\"author vcard\"><a href=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/author\/wprr\/\" title=\"Posts by Rachelle Rogers\">Rachelle Rogers<\/a><\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_3 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>I live a quiet life these days, although not one without challenges. At seventy-seven, for me this has become a time for going within, for expanding awareness, for learning to love and take good care of myself. And also for reflecting upon where I\u2019ve been and where I want to be now. A time of sorting through experiences \u2014 the good the bad and the ugly \u2014 many of which spontaneously play through my mind, reminding me to honor <em>all <\/em>of my journey.<\/p>\n<p>It was in my mid-twenties that I started asking the big questions. <em>Who am I? Why am I here? Have I been here before? What is the meaning of life? What is the meaning of <\/em>my<em> life?<\/em> Over the decades I received answers, many of which came from amazing sister souls who were gifted \u201cchannelers\u201d and seemed to slide into my life at times I needed help the most.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_1 et_pb_row et_block_row et_animated\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_2 et_pb_column et_pb_column_4_4 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_image_0 et_pb_image et_pb_module et_block_module\"><span class=\"et_pb_image_wrap\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web.jpg\" width=\"1500\" height=\"1001\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web.jpg 1500w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web-1280x854.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web-980x654.jpg 980w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web-480x320.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) and (max-width: 980px) 980px, (min-width: 981px) and (max-width: 1280px) 1280px, (min-width: 1281px) 1500px, 100vw\" class=\"wp-image-44519\" title=\"photo-1623611659553-9c68674be1d9-web\" \/><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_2 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_3 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_4 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>I think of my Soul as my non-physical Essence. My Soul holds all my identities, personalities, and memories. My soul is the complete experiential expression of who I am, have been, or will be, through all dimensions, in and out of time, past, present and future, on this beautiful planet Earth and elsewhere in the Universe.<\/p>\n<p>Other lives, to me, are individual expressions of my Soul in a given time and place. Although I might use it here, I don\u2019t often use the term \u201cpast lives,\u201d since I believe that all is happening simultaneously. It is only within time that we see things as past, present, or future. And so it seems possible to me that a Soul can incarnate at any specific point on a timeline, or several places and timelines at once. From inside the timeline, lives appear chronological, but from the vaster timeless perspective, all is happening at once.<\/p>\n<p>A few of my memories of past lives have been as known historical people whom one can read about in books. These memories did not come from ego on my part. If fact, they were often very troubling. One of the things I came to understand is that, in simple language, one person wasn\u2019t one person. Fifty people can have memories of being Queen Victoria, and they can all be correct. There are many aspects to each individual Soul expression and different people could have experienced different aspects. At least, this is what makes sense to me.<\/p>\n<p>I also came to understand that there\u2019s something that can be thought of as a Soul Family or Soul Group. One of my beloved non-physical teachers defined this using vibrational Color Bands. She told me I was of the Yellow Band. She also referred to this as the Michaelangelo Band and the Romantic Band, as in the romanticism of 19th century art. The Yellow\/Gold band, she explained, was responsible for much of what, over the centuries, has been known on this planet as \"great art.\" Because that is a major aspect of my Soul, and even though I did not choose to express \u201con stage\u201d in this lifetime, it is not unusual that I would \u201crecognize\u201d others \u201con stage\u201d with whom I have a strong Soul connection.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_4 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_3 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_column_empty et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_3 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_5 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_3 et_block_column et_pb_column_empty et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\"><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_6 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_5 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Dimensions, from my perspective, can be thought of as realms that vibrate at different energetic frequencies. The higher the dimension, the faster the vibration. The higher\/faster the vibration, the more expansive the possibilities.<\/p>\n<p>The third dimension is the realm of physical reality, of density, of ego, of never enoughness, of fear, of very little to no spiritual awareness. It is the realm of duality \u2014 good\/bad, right\/wrong, black\/white. There is no gray.<\/p>\n<p>The fourth dimension is the bridge between 3-D and 5-D. It has a slightly higher\/faster vibrational frequency than 3-D, which allows for accessing spiritual practices like mindfulness, meditation, more awareness of our multi-dimensional beingness. It is where we can begin to process what happens in the third dimension from the perspective of our Higher Self, although it is still accessed more through the mind than the Soul.<\/p>\n<p>The fifth dimension is the most exciting to me. As I understand it, until this time in our planetary evolution of consciousness, it seems the high vibrating frequency of 5-D could not easily be sustained on Earth. Only Self-Realized Beings, like Buddha, Lao Tzu, or Jesus could hold that vibration within a body. Now, however, through the intent of millions of spiritual practitioners globally across the planet, it is becoming possible to access more and more of the expansiveness of that realm.<\/p>\n<p>The fifth dimension is the frequency of Unconditional Love and Light, of synchronicity, psychic communication, Joy, and true Freedom. It is also the realm of dreams and imagination. It is being in the Now, the present moment, yet being able to access timeless Soul memories. It is the vibration from which we can send Light, Love, Peace, Compassion into the \u201cfield,\u201d creating new choices for those beginning to awaken. It is the realm of unlimited possibility.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_4 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_7 et_pb_column et_pb_column_4_4 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_6 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Dimensions, however, are fluid and we constantly move through them as we live our lives. I\u2019ve had decades of esoteric experiences that tumbled through dimensions, shaping my understandings, and playing a major role in my becoming. They included glimpses of Souls I have traveled with, memories of other lifetimes, amazing synchronicities.<\/p>\n<p>When I look back on these experiences now, they feel like other lives I lived in this body, Sometimes, I don't know what to make of them. To some, these stories could be considered fascinating, even miraculous, although they often caused me to question my own sanity, and called upon me to draw up courage and strength I didn\u2019t think I had in me. I have written in detail about these encounters in both my novel, <a href=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/books\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><em>A Love Apart<\/em><\/a>, and my memoir, <em><a href=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/books\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Rare Atmosphere: An Extraordinary Inter-dimensional Affair of the Heart<\/a>. <\/em><\/p>\n<p>Being of the Yellow Band, it is not surprising that some of my closest Soul connections and recognition was of those also of the Yellow\/Gold Band. And at times this recognition expanded to memory of past lives as historical figures from the world of the arts. In one case, I recognized a Soul partner as the energy of Fr\u00e9d\u00e9ric Chopin (Romantic composer) to my George Sand (prolific writer, scandalous feminist) who were in an intense nine year relationship. To this day, I cannot listen to Chopin, the Nocturnes especially, without tears welling from a deep familiarity with the haunting melancholy of the music.<\/p>\n<p>In 1999, fourteen years before I wrote my memoir, a writer and visual artist friend came to Asheville for a visit. One evening she did a sketch of me for my birthday. At a later time, when I came across a photo of George Sand, I was amazed and a little freaked to find how strangely similar the images were.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_5 et_pb_row et_block_row et_animated\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_8 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_2 et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_image_1 et_pb_image et_pb_module et_block_module\"><span class=\"et_pb_image_wrap\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/RR-by-Min-web.jpg\" width=\"850\" height=\"879\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/RR-by-Min-web.jpg 850w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/RR-by-Min-web-480x496.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) 850px, 100vw\" class=\"wp-image-44532\" title=\"RR-by-Min-web\" \/><\/span><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_7 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Art by Mindy Lewis<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_9 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_2 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_image_2 et_pb_image et_pb_module et_block_module\"><span class=\"et_pb_image_wrap\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/George-Sand-web.jpg\" width=\"800\" height=\"960\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/George-Sand-web.jpg 800w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/George-Sand-web-480x576.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) 800px, 100vw\" class=\"wp-image-44533\" title=\"George-Sand-web\" \/><\/span><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_8 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Amantine Lucile Aurore Dupin<span>\u00a0(1804-1876) known by her pen name, George Sand<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_6 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_10 et_pb_column et_pb_column_4_4 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_9 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p style=\"text-align: left;\">[If you have any interest in a wonderfully entertaining, brilliantly acted, and somewhat fictionalized account of Chopin and George Sand, I would recommend one of my all-time favorite films, <em>Impromptu 1991<\/em>.]<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\u2665<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">The last interdimensional relationship I had I shared only with a few very close friends. The experience had many of the same remarkable aspects that my other encounters like this had \u2014 immediate recognition of connection, extraordinary synchronicities, moving through dimensions, guidance from channeled Spirit Guides, but this encounter gave me something more \u2014 an experience of true healing, unconditional love, and what it feels like to merge into Oneness.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">This relationship was with another public figure, a consummate film and stage actor this time, who I will call Benjamin. I had felt a connection to this being since I was sixteen years old. Although he was of the Yellow\/Gold Band, he also held the Green Band vibration of a Healer. This relationship was extremely sensual, sexual in a Tantric way, and deeply spiritual. In those inner spaces, we meditated together in lush gardens, by lotus pools, in the light of a thousand candles. We recognized our own reflection in each other. We made love with more than our bodies.<\/p>\n<p>Early in the relationship, Benjamin \u201csent\u201d me the name Makura, which he asked me to call him. I felt it was from a future past life on another planet. One day while driving, I briefly \u201csaw\u201d us as extraterrestrials. Another time, in an altered state, I heard him speak to me in a language that was not like any language on this planet, and I understood it.<\/p>\n<p>At the time of this relationship I was struggling with an intense physical challenge, and Makura, in his Healer persona, \u201ctoned\u201d into my body. The sounds, which seemed to come through rather than from him were unearthly and miraculous \u2014 first melodious, then haunting; first barely audible, then projected to a depth and vibratory strength I was sure could move mountains.<\/p>\n<p>Yet, as in my other interdimensional journeys, I also had to face difficult issues within myself, which, in this case, were revealed through story aspects and parts Benjamin played in films that synchronistically \u201cshowed up\u201d in front of me.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_7 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_11 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_10 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>In addition to these vast experiences, however, this relationship eventually lead me to the solution of an overlapping past and present life mystery that thoroughly intrigued me. Many years before, when I was living in Chapel Hill, communicating with my guides of the Yellow\/Gold Band, they helped me flesh out a life I felt I had lived as the writer and poet Elinor Wylie.<\/p>\n<p>A short time later, at the library in Asheville, I felt a clear message to look her up and found both a comprehensive collection of her poetry, and a biography. I read the poems over and over, and the biography with interest and compassion, even as I reminded myself not to get caught up in the drama. And there was a lot of drama.<\/p>\n<p>Like me, she had married three times, her last husband being the poet, writer, and editor William Rose Ben\u00e9t, who was said to have been completely captivated by her. I wondered who Bill Ben\u00e9t was to me and eventually asked my guides. I was told he was an incarnation of the one I call Yashu in my memoir.<\/p>\n<p>Elinor had been called vain, self-centered, cold, emotionally unavailable, and even slightly on the edge of sanity. But she was also considered highly intelligent, beautiful, artistically gifted and generous. In Bill Ben\u00e9t\u2019s foreword to the collection of Elinor's poetry, which he complied and edited after her death at forty-three, he referred to her as \"\u2026one I deeply love and whom I have always esteemed a genius.\"<\/p>\n<p>It was difficult for me to find much of Bill in Yashu today, and it saddened me to learn that Elinor had never really been able to return his love. Yet it was Elinor's obsession with the poet Percy Bysshe Shelley that fascinated me the most. She'd read and devoutly studied everything about him since she was seven. She wrote an inspired and beautiful sonnet sequence to him, entitled, <em>A Red Carpet for Shelley,<\/em> which began:<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\">But this is nothing; an eccentric joke,<br \/>The legendary patchwork of a year<br \/>Flung into muddiness, like Raleigh's cloak,<br \/>To ask the honour of your step, my dear.<br \/>Your path is printed on the atmosphere<br \/>Forever as a flame against the smoke<br \/>Of obscure vision, and I must invoke<br \/>Your magnanimity to make it clear.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\">If I might spread soft words like living grass<br \/>Laid smooth beneath the heavy wheels of Time;<br \/>If I might loose the river of a rhyme<br \/>Or build a pavement out of gold and glass<br \/>Providing Heaven for you to walk upon,<br \/>It would be well; it would be better done.<\/p>\n<p>Reading this now still makes me tear up.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_12 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_3 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_image_3 et_pb_image et_animated et_pb_module et_block_module\"><span class=\"et_pb_image_wrap\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Elinor-4-web.jpg\" width=\"600\" height=\"762\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Elinor-4-web.jpg 600w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Elinor-4-web-480x610.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) 600px, 100vw\" class=\"wp-image-44529\" title=\"Elinor-4-web\" \/><\/span><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_11 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Elinor Wylie (1885-1928)<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_image_4 et_pb_image et_animated et_pb_module et_block_module\"><span class=\"et_pb_image_wrap\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Percy-Bysshe-Shelley-web.jpg\" width=\"700\" height=\"700\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Percy-Bysshe-Shelley-web.jpg 700w, https:\/\/rachellerogers.com\/dev1\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Percy-Bysshe-Shelley-web-480x480.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) 700px, 100vw\" class=\"wp-image-44530\" title=\"Percy-Bysshe-Shelley-web\" \/><\/span><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_12 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Percy Bysshe Shelley (1792-1822)<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_8 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_13 et_pb_column et_pb_column_1_3 et_block_column et_pb_column_empty et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\"><\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_14 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et-last-child et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_13 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p>Elinor resurrected Shelley from his watery grave in her novel, <em>The Orphan Angel<\/em>, based on the premise that Shelley didn't drown, but was rescued and brought to America. She attempted to turn every dinner conversation onto the subject of Shelley. She professed to hear him in the next room, or see him press his face against the door glass. It was said she even believed, at times, she <em>was<\/em> Shelley.<\/p>\n<p>Elinor's feelings felt frighteningly familiar. There I was reading about another aspect of me in a past life having an intense interdimensional relationship like the one I was having in my present life, only hers was with someone who had died a hundred years earlier. I had to find out who this man Shelley was\u2026to Elinor, and to me.<\/p>\n<p>My desk looked like I'd booked a literary excursion into the past two centuries \u2014 Elinor's writings and biography, Bill Ben\u00e9t's poetry, biographies of Shelley, Shelley and Byron, Mary Shelley's journals, poetry and prose of Shelley\u2026 I had a grand time, and I, too, fell in love with Shelley, a man whose heart, for reasons not known, remained whole instead of turning to ash as he was cremated. But who was this incredibly beautiful and sensitive soul that could evoke such passion in us? Who was he to Elinor? To me?<\/p>\n<p>Then, one evening, I was talking about all of this on the phone with my dear Soul Sister who channeled my Asheville guides, when, in a familiar profusion of feeling, bodily sensation, and the inevitable tears that follow an exquisite recollection, it came to me. Benjamin, of course, was Shelley. It seemed so obvious, I didn't know why I hadn't come to it sooner. It was a quiet revelation, just another incarnation, but it solved for me \u2014 and perhaps for Elinor, too \u2014 a little interdimensional mystery. As I'd followed my clues through a trail of time, I\u2019d felt Elinor with me, right beside me, just as she'd felt Shelley, just as I feel Benjamin and Yashu, just as all of us, whether or not we're aware of it, feel all of us, because we <em>are<\/em> all of us. Elinor was not mad, and I wrote her a letter telling her so.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"et_pb_row_9 et_pb_row et_block_row\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_column_15 et_pb_column et_pb_column_2_3 et_block_column et_pb_css_mix_blend_mode_passthrough\">\n<div class=\"et_pb_text_14 et_pb_text et_pb_bg_layout_light et_pb_module et_block_module preset--group--divi-text--divi-font-header--default\"><div class=\"et_pb_text_inner\"><p><strong>Letter To Elinor<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>We\u2019re back, my dear,<br \/>and I am here to do it differently<br \/>this time.<br \/>They say you lived more scandal<br \/>than a Wharton tale, your story splayed<br \/>from Washington DC to England\u2019s shore.<br \/>Poor thing. I can understand, for I loved<br \/>drama too. In fact, I\u2019m not sure what I\u2019ll do<br \/>without it now, or who I\u2019ll be. You see, it\u2019s time<br \/>for us to cease the melancholy stance, unwind<br \/>this dance. You\u2019ve suffered much,<br \/>I know.<br \/>An exile, self-imposed, and all for love<br \/>(you said) can be no bed of daisies, though<br \/>you tried to claim it was. We must get real<br \/>my dear. We must now feel and not<br \/>just bury passion under icy silver<br \/>words, as sparkling as they are, but live<br \/>it warm and golden face to face and heart<br \/>to heart in each embrace.<\/p>\n<p>I married Phil again<br \/>you know,<br \/>and it proved just as cold.<br \/>It wasn\u2019t even in the plan, but more<br \/>a detour taken round an endless misery<br \/>at home. I was not yet nineteen.<br \/>And Horace found me several years<br \/>ago. He\u2019s known as Denver now, a preachy<br \/>irritation, like an itch just out of reach.<br \/>But we were friends, and he did teach me<br \/>things. I think he loves us still.<br \/>And Bill! If you could see the princely<br \/>face he wears today you\u2019d cry. They call<br \/>him great and goddess-gifted, and the best<br \/>that ever lived. He\u2019s made his mark<br \/>upon his art. And yet, it\u2019s all an act, a large<br \/>distraction posed to keep his soul<br \/>at bay. He does not say, <em>This is my joy!<br \/><\/em>but robs himself and sighs, <em>This is my job.<br \/><\/em>They\u2019ve called him cool, exacting, and unkind.<br \/>Can you imagine Bill unkind? He keeps<br \/>his chosen hell, his dazzling prison guarded well.<br \/>We\u2019ve hurt him dear, through centuries,<br \/>as he did us. So much denial. So much mistrust.<br \/>It\u2019s taken years and years of dreams<br \/>to win him back. I love him so. I know<br \/>you know. He\u2019s such a part of us.<\/p>\n<p>I have yet saved the best<br \/>for last. Our elfin-knight, our Ariel\u2019s returned.<br \/>Our lovely Shelley shines<br \/>again, not just in words, but large<br \/>upon a stage, upon a screen as tall and lean<br \/>as once he was. Now, he does not bow<br \/>his shoulders down. He is magnificent!<br \/>And I, too, would <em>unroll the rounded moon<br \/><\/em><em>and sun and knit them up for him to walk<br \/><\/em><em>upon.<\/em> His smile spins stars, its splendor sparks<br \/>the dimmest heart. Music keeps<br \/>in every syllable he speaks and floats<br \/>along the ripples of his resurrected<br \/>song. Those still blue eyes have held for me<br \/>the vision of my own divinity.<br \/>His richness<br \/>is the sanctum of my dreams, the altar of my core.<br \/>He is my soul, my one, my <em>Epipsychidion.<br \/><\/em>\u00a0<br \/>They say, like Albe, you were <em>mad<br \/><\/em><em>and bad and dangerous to know<\/em>,<br \/>in part because you swore you often saw<br \/>his face inside your door, yet he was dead.<br \/>If it is consolation, I can say<br \/>the landscapes of the heart are lush<br \/>and real and spell the curl of possibility.<br \/>This truth<br \/>has been shown to me, and I have proved<br \/>it to be so. Dead or out of reach, it\u2019s all the same.<br \/>Ring once his name and he will hear.<br \/>I cannot claim to know <em>my<\/em> Shelley<br \/>in the flesh, yet for a year he came<br \/>to me as deep and faithful as my breath.<br \/>He smoothed my hair, and pressed<br \/>his honey mouth to mine, and placed himself<br \/>beside me jasmine-scented gorgeous<br \/>in the crescent slant of night, and beamed<br \/>his constant love through mirrored<br \/>eyes until I could not fail to see<br \/>my Self.<br \/>That was his greatest gift to me. If this be madness,<br \/>lock my cells, key the alarms, and I<br \/>will stay forever fairy in his arms.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Well, my dear, it\u2019s getting late.<br \/>I put more bronze into my hair last year<br \/>to catch the sun. I thought of you.<br \/>This has been great. The other day I read<br \/>your epitaph \u2014 <em>An image of some bright eternity.<br \/><\/em>Well done!<br \/>And your obituary in the New York Times.<br \/>December 1928. It was too strange. <em>Angels<br \/><\/em><em>and Earthly Creatures<\/em> both are we.<br \/>I do agree. 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